Wad a mth

just cum to realise tt i haf been spending a few K a mth... Wad e f...
Oh boi tis truely is over spent...
Oh well wad comes ard goes ard...
Hai my new bike is coming out tis mth happpi.. but at e same time spend too much on e new bike! Tt for sure. Blew my pocket on it.... @ least e bike won't lve mi.... Tt for sure!

Alone:
When e sky is dark,
When e wind is strong,
When ray of hope seem dull,
When e mist cloud our vision,
When e path is full of uncertain,
When e time seem lost for all eternal,
Wad can i do,
Who can i seek,
Wad can b done,
Who is there,
Who is nt,
Who can i share my greive wif,
Who is there to share my burden,
I question,
Y is life miserable,
Y is life hard,
Y is life harsh,
Y life can't b in ctrl,
Y is there so much for mi to face,
Y is there a thousand and 1 y,
Yet 1 stood alone in e corner pondering.... Pondering.....
???????????????????????????????????
It makes 1 wonder y.

????

Random??? Still on losing steak.... Wa ha ha ha... So so so damn it curse it....
Having shit nt fr work but others....

feeling:
Ironic ironic, getting angry for no reason.
When 1 luv, 1 falls,
When 1 cry, 1 cheers,
When 1 wan, 1 reject,
When wan 1 needs, 1 deny,
When 1 desire, 1 contradict,
As much as i wan to but i just can't.

fatigue???? Or no?????

life is per normal tis few wks... Nothing much has happen...
But e dizzy spell keep coming to mi n it SUCK big time!!!
1st was @ zouk onli 3 shots plus beer...
2nd was @ viva onli a couple of macallan...
Man was tt bad!!!
For e last mth i was drinking more thn tis n nothing happen to mi.... Oh boy...
Lucky for mi aft viva i got a bed rd e corner :D
Tis realli SUCK big time i saY.
Oh well lucky thing for mi is tt i actually win in maj aft i lost for e past 6 mth...

curse it just ain't my luck.

Damn... Just brought a new white leather predo shoes n guess wad, e leather is being torn out by don noe wad. Damn. There goes my new shoes. Oh well. Consolation i did pass my traffic police today... ;-)
No gf so will concentrate all my might on my upcoming bike. My next bike = to my upcoming wife. Wa ha ha ha... Promise to bring eddie for a spin @ a higher spd. Wee wee...
Curse it... I really like my new shoe!
Life ain't tt bad, living happily everyday. No worries abt is going to happen... But e onli thing i m worried abt is still eddie. E way she wobble @ her hse still flashes vividly in my mind. Damn... Its nt tt i mind. But is tt i mind too much. Anyw must work hard in e upcoming few mth for my bike. ;-)

Counsel, studying

Went back to camp today to collect my text book. Damn, was e text bk thick n i must study n clear it within 2 wks.... Omg hw m i going to finish it????
Just went back to see my old trainee, guess wad saw 2 student wif depression. And my trainee who is an instructor nw can't do anything abt it...
So i suggest to help out. Talk n talk each last mi abt 1 hr man was i thirsty... 1 is like in e verge of split personality n 1 is too depress... Does army reallo made pple cranky... Seriously don noe cos nt on my count... But lucky for mi effort nt waste cos they actualli listen lucky for mi to b able to bring them back to path... But still there is more to b done. Hope both of them can actualli make it thru in their training.... Bless them...
Wonder hw eddie is doing??? Miss her...

Rave!!!

For e past 2 wk its like a killer... 2 ditch man sitting side by side @ viva... Both of us went there till broke! Not shitting any1 out there...
Oh well life still goes on nevertheless??? Rite?
Damn on a thur faithful nite. I call my dear nw. Damn tt a very bad move! End up being e target board wif mulitiple darts on mi... Chris n eddie??? Who wld though both wld gang up on mi... I can onli suck it up; pronto! DAMN!
1st time in mi life i haf nothing to say back!
Think it must haf been eddie. A person i seldom talk back to!
Wad to do... Just suck it up ROCKY!
Gosh. I'm always e 1 firing @ pple... Oh well there a 1st to everything. Rite :D
@ e maj table eddie ask mi whether i wana convert gay. Hmmm tt thot did came to my mind b4 but nevertheless i still got some 1 in mind so Naaaaa.... Its definite nt my ex or any of my ex... Its a person i nv open my mouth n tell her tt i wana b wif her. Thou i like her fr don noe since when???
I think it is mission impossible! But tt does nt matter... Wad matter most nw is everybody is living happily...
Aqua tt song : if onli i can turn back time.... Hai if tt can happen, hw wonderful wld tt b. Naaa dreaming of e impossible... But i still look toward e future. :D
Cos it is feel wif infinite possibility....

Crazy long nite!!!!!!!

Think abt it, i haf been going to viva for almost 2 wk. Damn tired. Every nite stranded over @ viva. Also don noe wad to do.... Sing song, talk cock. Hai... Eventually tis get alittle bit bored.
My poor little boy... Looking at her no doubt any1 wld find her pretty but when look beyond e shell, it sadden mi.... It neither haf e full of vibrant nor full of sorrow look... It like a trance...
Anyw, i still love her...
Playing majon tis yr is a killer, lose every time literally... It either more or less.
My life n luck is taking a dwn turn... Big 1!!!
Need to find more job... Must find back my life of working like a dog....