CRUEL

Cruelty....
Meaning: mean cruel to other equal to beening cruel to ourself...
Gif pple a chance n gif yourself a chance.
Locking in a domaint doesn help wif anything.
Unlock ur door n unleash ur true self... Whether it b gd or bad.

From the dawn of time,
Selfishness is there,
Selfishness lead to cruelty,
Thus brutality is form,
Savage of human of mankind can be seen in different prospect,
Violence, hatred, anger, scheming, plotting, inflicting and many more,
What human desire and what they could not get,
Give rise to the dark side,
Horrible things starts to happen,
Cruel intention surface.
Its in every human.

Tks u so Much...

The past 2 days has been my very gloomy day of my life... Tks so much eddie my little boy. Tks u for ur accompany @ e dinner n for e follow up days... Tks for ur hugssss it really does bring me great comfort.
For tt i will always rmb.....
I'm in ur debt....
N fear nt, thou tis little gal haf sml shoulder... They will always b ready for u when u need it.
N ya things i promise u i did nt forget so... Don't U THINk I HAF....
U will get it soon....

26

Today is my so call 3rd mth anniversary. N ya.... Nothing much new has happen... I did hope tt she will come dwn wif e necklance... N join me for e dinner but ya.... Tis is e end.....
Just read a bk.... N i come to realise tt wad she say is true. I did change.

Tis mayb e last...... To my blog

Hai... Promise is hard to keep.... I once ask can u promise nt to lve mi. But in e end, she still lve mi. M i a failure or wad; each relationship is getting shorter thn e previous. I haf kept mi promise. N will fufill e rest of it tt i promise...
Hw i wish i can haf a long relationship. But.... Nahhhhhh i think tt is nt possible...
2 of my ex gf promise mi to accompany mi to my sis wed.... But none came true.
I actually do wish tt tis will b my last relationship.... But it appear nt.......
I haf bid farewell to e hse @ hf rd
All things can b done.... Haf been done...tis is abt it.....
For the Last time..... Last time......... I say.........
I love u bb.......

Cheap

Life is cheap. Tt is wad i always agree on. Nw tt i haf no more worries. Ya life is as gd as dead to mi :)
Words r definitely cheaper... Tt y i tried hard to hold on or rather struggling to grasp hold of it.
In either way i haf fulfill most of it. Even somethings bad happen to mi nw, i can R.I.P w/o much of a worries...
Pray hard tt pple i love wld b in gd health, gd career n everything gd.
Wad happen is done.... Hai i miss 2 mth back. :)
Will b willing to gif up my soul to experience it once again....
Cheers to wad ever may fall upon mi. :p

Too much on my mind... :o

So much too worried, biz, study n my automobile.... Hai.....
Just done up e sum myself.
Invest in biz = no study plus no automobile
Don invest in biz = study n automobile
Hai don noe wish to chose. So so hard.
I may just turn wealth fr biz. But there a dwn turn. Or rather if i meet a dwn fall. Which mean tt i will really die. Hai..... Wad sld i do.......

Heart

My heart is like having acute myocardic infaction. Pain is like anytime. Don noe when it comes don noe when it goes. When it comes, it felt like e world is crushing dwn on mi. When it goes, e pain cease to exist. But still will feel e aftermath. Ahhhh.... she is like an asprin. It ease e pain. But when an asprin don work. I wonder wad can? I wonder??? Nothing better thn tt asprin.

Love / Torment / Tolerate???

From love comes torment,
From torment comes tolerate,
From tolerance comes love,
From love, it generate strength for us to tolerate torment,
From tolerance, it show us how much we care for our partner,
From torment, our heart can truly tell us how we really feel for our partner,
From what i see, there is no escaping from either three,
From when it started, nobody knows, except it has always been there.

Mistake Mistaken Mistook

My face has been awfully black recently. Possible reason; matters of the heart.
Got quite a num of parent complaining abt mi.
Saying tt tis coach seem fierce... But wad can i say its my face aft all. Hai wad to do.....
Whose opinon of my face. All can b ignored except 1. E onli 1 person i couldn't ignored...
All well does e 1 constitute to my blackie... I wldn say totally no. All well's end well's....
Certain things r nt meant to say, as e ending product is something which i don desire.

Another horrible day.

Hai another faithful day or can i say doom day have arrived. things r happening so fast and i ain't haf e chance to haf a breather.... Oh well tt life... Wad do i expect. Nothing will go smooth in my life... Let just hope mi career wld if nt i can go kill myself... Hai.......
In life nothing is perfect nothing is gd.....
Tt is y i need to work extreme hard for it...

Suprise suprise....

To my suprise... Me friend told mi tt i haf lost weight.... I was a bit stun cos i haf been eating. N e weight still carry on dipping. Its nt like i purposely wanting it to happen but it still happen. Hai too stressful n burnout. Just like a batt which is going to b flat but yet it can still flicker... Oh boi i need a recharge like 2 yrs ago. As wad i agree life is cheap. But 1 need to b responsible to pple to things. Nw wad i can do is earn more money n prepare for e next comimg event. Launch of my own biz... Hope things can run smoothly... Keeping my finger cross.... I think my moodyness is e thing causing mi to constant losing weight. Must get back a little fatter if nt a scolding is bound to come my way soon. To lose and gain weight rapid i noe it myself can only b cause by the women i love. Oh well will still try to put on some weigh thou

Life

Hw i wld wan to spend my life?
Seeing e old folks taking a sroll by the beach holding each other hand, hw envious.
Looking ar couple holding their hand thru wedding, hw envious.
Looking at parents holding their three yr old kid n playing ard with the child, hw envious.
Looking at granny/grandpa renewing their vows, hw envious.
Looking at myself. Hai 1 word to describe, sad.
All n all, wad u desired u can't get but wad u don desired u get.
Tt part of life.
All i can do is wait patiently for things to happen.
Hope tin gong dote gong kia. :)

Don feel good

Who wld haf noe tt a simple phone call wld end up into such a big arguement. Hai... I tell u life is so unpredictable. Nv haf expected tt to happen. I just hope tt we cld get back to the serenity we once haf. Can't blame any1 for the arguement. Cos she too stress over work and i m too moody. Oh well i guess tis is e life of an working adult. No choice.

Beautiful rainbow???

Life is getting better i hope. My bb finally noe tt i do care for her veri much... N she promise me tt she will nt do tis again. Oh well tt life, the rough love will bear its fruits when shit happen n we persever thru... hoping for a better tmr everyday. With hopes it make our life more meaningful as it passes day... brought a necklace from SK for my bb although its a sml gift from mi for our 3rd anniversary but i felt tt it is nt gd enough i sld haf gotten something better for her. but cldn realli felt a bit useless.... hai tt life u can' t haf the best of everrything.
At times i don feel love, at times i feel lots of love..... oh well like i said u can't haf the best of everything. i m just glad tt she like the necklace :)
Thou i haf reprimanded her on certain things. but she still my love nevertheless!

Photo shoot.

Was piss off tt i reach there damn early cos the actual starts late n i mean late. Wad thrill tt i can end off early cos early = more time for my bb. But call her more thn 20 times yet no ans. Wait for 3hrs yet no ans. Was getting tired so went hm n rest. tis few day, MAN m i tired. Is nt tt i don wan to slp but i can't plus even if i slp, i can't rest well feel very edgy recently Oh boi, hw i miss her look, her touch, her lips, her scent and her herself

Ironic...

Sometimes it is just stange. I bluff her she bluff me... Noe tt she is nt working but she tell mi mayb... Hmmm ironic.... Theortical saying she didn bluff. I ain't angry. Just a bit sad cos i can't meet her... Oh well she need to be free like tt of a sparrow in the sky... Flying in sky w/o worried.... Hw beautiful... I'm just like e grass to nurse her wound n hunger before she fly again like a beautiful kite in the sky for me to admired before she land again.

Love my definition

Love is about tolerance,
Love is about forgiving,
Love is about uncondition giving,
Love is about loving with your might,
Love is about loving with your life,
Love is about devotion,
Love is about never leaving her,
Love is about giving in to her,
Love is about loving her as the one n only.

Plead

I plead to god,
I plead to earth,
I plead to sea,
I plead to friends,
I plead to foes,
I plead to spare me of the sorrow,
I plead to release me of the suffering,
I plead to release me of fear,
I plead to be release of agony,
All and all if none of the above can come true,
I plead only for your happiness.

Unease

Don't noe y today i feel very unsettle very unease can't concentrate. Keep feeling that something is not right. But yet can't tell what is wrong. Woke up early in the morning at 7 plus, slept @ 6am. I haf fear of cold for e past few yr. So i don sweat when i slp... But today i sweat till it woke me up. I literally drench my bed... Since thn i haf a veri uneasy feeling for e whole day.... Tis feeling is sucky, cos i don noe wad i'm worried neither do i noe wad i fear... I haf check on all my love 1. They r doing fine. Yet i still feel e same way.... I really need u wif me tonight but u haf program on.... I'm feeling very lost, anxious, worried, fear, scared.... A veri veri mix feeling. I do need u desperately!

Schooling!

So Happy to see my bb finally going to start sch... N yet a bit sad. :( start sch=less time wif me. Can't see her so often. Oh well as long as she is happi so will i. :)
Thinking of her bday made me sad too... Wanting to celebrate wif her but she is going on a cruise wif her friend. Haiz.......
At times, i think tt i m transparent...
Oh well, wad to do rite.....

A day out

Today outing wif my bb has been great. Its been long since i felt like tis. Most prob its b'cos my bb gal is very stress up wif her stuff. We haf great fun in shopping, eating and just stoning ard. Life has been better for today. Hoping tt in future, everyday wld b like today. Ah.... E best things tt i didn expect is it my bb actually offer to watch soccer wif me. My delighted by her msg. All wells ends well.... So so happy. I foresee a better tmr n a better future.

A nite of bearing the heart

Seriously saying i nv see it coming. it was meant to b a quiet nite.
We end up talking a lot. bearing out heart out more thn any time we ever haf.
I think i got the alcohol to tks for it.
I heard alot of things n i tell alot of thing.
The worst part of the conversation is the metaphor sentense.
It really made me feel terrible for a min................
N i don noe wad made u came out wif a conclusion tt my love isn't as much compare to the last time.
Well i hope u finally noe tt i haven under cut u in any way in which i sld love u.
Definitely u will nt suffer alone.
i wld rather i suffer thn u.....
I promise tt i will tk care of u means i will, no matter wad issue arise.
Nw is like tt. In future it will also b the same.
Just allow and gif yourself a chance to let u see wad i can do n prove to u.
Hw i wish tt u will swallow tt pride of urs at times.
I must apologise for some of the wrong things i said.
Lets build a better future together.

Eternity

Eternity give birth to vows,

From vows give birth to love,

From love give birth to hatred,

When there is no hatred there is no love,

When there is no love there is no vows,

As times pass this element grows,

As it grows, our heart gets weaken,

Survive the element,

Survive the ordeal,

May our love last for eternity.

finally the appointment which was meant 1 yr ago

Finally we get to met up after missing a couple of meet out.
I'm glad that u told me what happen to you and i'm very sorry to hear that.
Oh well shit happen. so ya lets shit wa ha ha hah .
As u mention on the point of no return.
I don regret nw n i won't regret in the future.
i will hold her hand till she lets go.
This is a promise i made n ya i won't go back on it, cos there is love in it.
Plus i'm devoted to it.
As the pointed that u say, i will bare it in mind.
Peace out.....

SILENCE

Silence is around us,

Silence is cause by grief,

Silence is cause by love,

Silence is cause by anxiety,

Silence is cause by jealously,

Silence is cause by hatred,

Silence is cause by sorrow,

Silence is cause by remorse,

Silence is cause by overjoy,

Silence is cause by happiness,

Silence is cause by delight,

Whatever the cause of the silence, i'm glad i'm doing this with you, as there is no other person whom i can share all of this with.

You are who you are, i am who i am, together we will silently pieces together all feeling we have (joy, anger, sadness and feeling blue)

TIME

Time is long,

Time is short,

Time is infinite,

Time is just a mere 24 hours,

Time can makes us go insane,

Time can makes us crazily in love,

Time will heal,

Time will kill,

Whatever time might represent, it up to me decided.

Thus i have decided to love n guard you.